we have not been communicating much but my feelings for him is still there.
so much so that i actually mistaken my friends as him a few times yesterday.
but we have not talked much lately, and i really do not know what to say to him.
and i had a dream about him the night before, and this is what the dream is about.

i dreamt that i've read somewhere a quote that goes, "if a person really cares about you, he/she will look back for you if they can't find you by their side." and so i dreamt that i was out with him and decided to try and see if he cares about me. i walked slower and slower as he continues walking forward. And i slowly came to a stop and watched him as he slowly disappears into the crowd without turning back for me. Upset as i was, i ran forward to find him and couldn't find him at all. I started to panic, afraid that i might lose him and ran back to the spot where i stood to see if he would come back and look for me. I was really happy when i saw him searching for me through the crowd at the spot where i stood previously.

I know it's just a dream but if only reality is the same. I was sharing with my friend about my feelings for him and that if it was because I'm afraid of losing him, the special relationship that we shared, or if I've developed feelings for him. He's totally not the type of guy which I will fall for and i wonder where all this feelings was coming from. But in which ever case, my sixth sense just told me that he just not that into me, and my sixth sense has been accurate most of the time. From the way and speed that he is replying my messages just tell me everything. He no longer replies fast and the content is just so on the surface only. I have to know where I stand and not disturb him.

it just hurts me that he's just not that into me or it's just me thinking too much all the time. For now, I just know that I could not lose him, so I'll just stay the same.