i have a confession to make.

this is the first time ever that i ever fall so deeply for somebody.
and also, the first time i ever felt so hurt by the indirect rejection.
i tried to not think about this feeling, not think about him but it always failed.
every minute of my free time are spent thinking of him.
the conversation that we had, keep replaying inside my head.
the time that we shared together, i wish it'd stay forever.
it has been almost 2 weeks and i still cant get over it.
the way you smile, the way you talked and the way you are, being so kind, caring and protective, i wished you'd never stop doing that.
my heart just goes clenching whenever i see him, face to face, on facebook or even msn.
i have the urge to talk to him but always lacked the courage.
and what's more, what else can we talked about?
i don't want to bother him with what i felt about him.
i had to let him go, we doesn't belong in the same world anyway.
i know how it feels like to have someone u no longer have feelings for, talking to u all the time and i really don wish to inflict this feeling onto him.

but i thought we'd had a 2nd chance. but it just ended too fast.
i only blame myself for falling too fast and too deeply.
but how am i to meet another guy like you again?
i've fallen for you and every part of you.
and i hate myself right here.