I'd rather you stay in my life as friends then you disappearing out of my life.

"life is hard. It always had been and its always will be. Accepting this reality somehow makes things easier." what my oma told me.

yes. I totally agree that life is hard and reality is harsher. And i have got no choice but to accept reality don't i? :)
Because i've accepted reality, that's why i'm moving on. The past only reminds me of unhappiness and that's probably why i am going to look forward to the future instead of dwelling on the past. :)
they say, "forgetting somebody you love is like trying to forget someone you never met."
so, i'm not going to forget you. instead, i'm going to bring forward all the nice and great memories that we had into my future. You were once the best thing that could've happened to me.

every person who has fallen out of love will surely have scars left on them and the scars can only be covered with makeup. it will not be completely removed. i don't mind having the scars, cause it helps me to remember you. and be honoured, so it will be difficult to forget u. you're like a vampire who has just bitten me and left ur marking there. ;p

we will still be friends, won't we? =X

Second Chances

Second Chances doesn't always mean a happy ending;
Sometimes, it's just another shot to end things right.

i never thought i'd fall in love
but it grew from a simple crush
being without you girl, i'm so messed up
when you walked out, said that you'd had enough

been a fool, girl i know
din expect this is how things would go
maybe in time, you'll change your mind
now looking back, i wish i could rewind

because i cant sleep till you're next to me
no i can't live without you no more
oh i stay up till you're next to me
til this house feels like it did before
feels like insomnia ah ah, feels like insomnia ah ah
feels like insomnia ah ah, feels like insomnia ah ah

remember telling my boys that i'd never fall in love
you used to think i'd never find a girl i could trust
and then you walked into my life and it was all about us
but now i'm sitting here, thinking i messed the whole thing up

ahh, i just can't go to sleep
cause it feels like i've fallen for you
it's getting way too deep
and i know its love because.....

i have a confession to make.

this is the first time ever that i ever fall so deeply for somebody.
and also, the first time i ever felt so hurt by the indirect rejection.
i tried to not think about this feeling, not think about him but it always failed.
every minute of my free time are spent thinking of him.
the conversation that we had, keep replaying inside my head.
the time that we shared together, i wish it'd stay forever.
it has been almost 2 weeks and i still cant get over it.
the way you smile, the way you talked and the way you are, being so kind, caring and protective, i wished you'd never stop doing that.
my heart just goes clenching whenever i see him, face to face, on facebook or even msn.
i have the urge to talk to him but always lacked the courage.
and what's more, what else can we talked about?
i don't want to bother him with what i felt about him.
i had to let him go, we doesn't belong in the same world anyway.
i know how it feels like to have someone u no longer have feelings for, talking to u all the time and i really don wish to inflict this feeling onto him.

but i thought we'd had a 2nd chance. but it just ended too fast.
i only blame myself for falling too fast and too deeply.
but how am i to meet another guy like you again?
i've fallen for you and every part of you.
and i hate myself right here.

"trying to forget someone u love is trying to remember someone you never met"

"Love can sometimes be magic,
but magic can sometimes...
just be an illusions."