Lost and alone.

have you ever been lost and alone at the same time?
have you experience lost and alone kind of feeling?
when you use lost and alone as figurative, do you really understand the feeling of it to use it?

well, i did.
Just this afternoon, I experienced being lost and alone at the same time.
i was out alone and i got lost.
And thats when i really understand the real meaning of being lost and alone.
Shall not go into detail of what happen.
Feels really pathetic.

Feels really pathetic that one might have lots of friends,
but when you really needed one companion, none could give it to you.
feels really pathetic that one might have lots of friends,
but to have one that really understand, is close to a zero.
feels really pathetic that one might have lots of friends,
but to have one that you can trust, is really difficult to find.
feels really pathetic that one might have lots of friends,
but if you were to disappear one day, nobody will notice.
feels really pathetic that one might have lots of friends,
but with just one setback, you just starts to complain.

what's the most pathetic thing?
the most really pathetic thing that can happen is that you've only got yourself to blame for the pathetic things to happen.

And that I'm the most pathetic person in the world.

hmm.. life's getting on the bored side now..
everyday the same old routine..
work, home, housechores, sleep, work, home, housechores, sleep.....
when will my life start getting livelier??

i need to buck up more on my work too.
i have to learn to be much more responsible and alert than i am now.
find new pictures for new theme, find activities related to new theme
find songs for end-of-year-concert, create dance and think of costume.
i need to be a better teacher. i don think i'm good enough. :(