yesterday was valentine's day.
went to watch Look For A Star with jm
after that we went to eat Carl's JR.
first time eating it.. haha..
then we went walk walk..
from plaza sing to fort canning park.
from there walk walk to near clarke quay there..
then walk around some buildings
then to funan mall and another building..
don remember the name.. haha..
then walk to take bus go home..
reach bp then feels like its still early and home gt nobody,
decided to go down to my mum shop.
then reach there a while dad came.
din know they going for seafood dinner, their valentine's dinner..
but since i am there i tagged along.
went with them to east coast park there
after their dinner go walk abit.
reach home my leg was like aching all over.
but i don mind it. blehx=p haha



then this morning, received a call.
a very sad call.
he left us at 5 am.
din manage to see him yesterday and he left.
rest in peace my dear friend, we'll remember you always.
you will still live in our hearts.

just some little updates about msyself.
don know why, my stomach has been feeling very quite uncomfortable for the past few days.
just feels like vomiting the things i ate out.
hope the feeling will be gone soon.

was told that they heard the news wrongly yesterday morning when i took train down to the hospital to visit my friend again.
he wasnt brain dead like what i was being told. no. not yet.
i was happy for him and his parents when i heard that piece of news.
he was only in coma and he can still wake up and talk like a normal person.
it only takes time.
we received msg that says he will be going for operation at around 10 plus.
so when we reached at 10, he wasnt pushed in for the operation.
and at 12 plus, he still wasnt pushed in for operation and i was asking my friends why.
we were folding paper cranes for him then.
i was told he needs to go through some test first.
so i continued folding the cranes.
as i need to reach school around 3 to do my proj with my partner, i did not stay for long.
but when i left, he was still waiting for his result from the test before the operation.

i met up with kelin in school to do my proj.
halfway through the proj, i received a call.
a call from darryl.
'he is brain dead. not going to continue with the operation anymore.'
thats something similar to what he said. i couldnt remember the exact words.
i was like 'huh???? thats means he couldnt wake up anymore?'
he said' brain dead already how to function anymore'
i still couldnt remember the exact words.
i just stone there for a while after that.
how could something like this happen to a nice person like him?
after that i smsed darryl back to asked about his parents.
cause i know nothing i feel could be compared to what his parents is feeling.
his mum is very sad and his dad was calm but emotional when he heard the news.

went back down today to see him.
i went to talked to him the first time among this 3 days.
the 2 friends i went in with cried.
i was determined not to cry today.
i wanted to say a lot of things but i couldnt say it out.
i could only asked for him to wake up.
and i left soon after that for my proj.

received a piece news this morning.
one of my sec sch friend was hospitalise and was said to be brain dead.
it really shocked me.
it's like i just saw him a few days ago back in school and he was smiling and all those,
looking perfectly fine.
he was a very healthy and sporting person.
no one would have thought that something like this would have happened to him.
went down to see him in the afternoon today.
he was still in coma.
heard what happened to him.

he was cycling with his friends 2 months back when he had an accident and knocked his head on a tree.
guess he thought it was nth so did not tell anybody about it.
who knows, 2 months later.
halfway through his test, he vomited out his food with blood and fall in coma.
brought to the hospital and found blood clot in his head.
undergo surgery but blood pressure increases resulting in the stopping of the operation.
the next 12 hrs would be the critical moment for him.

it was very sad to see this kind of things happening to a friend.
i manage to contain my tears the first few times i went in to see him.
after that was talking to my sec sch teachers who came to see him.
life is fragile, they said. so cherish it. so do everything you want to so and enjoy it to the max.
i went in to see him for the last time before i left.
saw his father and mother trying to talk to him and wake him up from his coma.
knew that he was listening as tears were coming out from his eyes.
the situation breaks ones heart.
his mother was all in tears when i went in.
then i couldnt help but let my tears flow too.
i wish for him to recover.

yesterday was closing!
closing itself was quite ok.
the fun and nice part is the phototaking time.
its really fun!
i will miss all the seniors!

received my toa and saw something that really make my day.
or should i say night. but no matter what,
i'm really happy to see that small little drawing!
thank you very much!
i will miss it alot!

我想过一件事 不是坏的事
一直对自己坚持爱情的意思
像风没有理由轻轻吹着走
谁爱谁没有所谓的对与错
不管世间说着我们在一起有多坎坷

我不敢去证实爱你两个字
不是对自己矜持也不是讽刺
别人都在说我其实很无知
这样的感情被认定很讽刺
我很不服 我还在想着那件事

如果你已经不能控制 每天想我一次
如果你因为我而诚实
如果你看我的电影 听我爱的CD
如果你能带我一起旅行
如果你决定跟随感觉 为爱勇敢一次
如果你说我们有彼此
如果你会开始相信 这般恋爱心情
如果你能给我如果的事
(我只要你遇见如果的事)

我会奋不顾身的去爱你

Lately I've been thinking 'bout wat i can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way
I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done I just can't do this anymore
Cause we can't be mended
So let's stop pretending now
We've been walking round in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you, yeah

I, I I'm so sorry baby but
I, I I've got to pack up and leave but
I, I'll always remember how we came close to be
And what I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
Oooooh Yeahh
I wanted you
I wanted, I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall (I wanted you to be there, yeahhh)
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love (Ooh ooh)
I wanted you, I wanted you (I wanted you oh)
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need (I wanted you to know me just how down deep yeah)
I wanted you to know just how down deep (I wanted you to know just how)
I wanted you, I wanted youI wanted you
I.. I wanted you, I wanted you