argh... i really don know wad happen? tell me? pls??
i am no longer that angry with that person now.. i am back to my normal self.. my cough is gone..
but i seems to have lost something.. something important..
but i don know wad happen.. how did i even lose it? argh..

i walked down to beauty world alone today after sch at around 7 plus pm. its has been a long time since i last walk down that road alone.. since sch start, i have always been accompanied around wherever i may go.. but today i was alone.. i was a little lost.. how did i ended up alone now? and like always, everytime walking down that road alone always allows me time to think a lot.. been thinking about my life for the past few months.. wat have i been doing.. wad have i done wrong.. how did i do my things? badly? crazily? did i scare away the people around me? how i made my friends upset? how i wanted to do whats best for the people around me? but how i ended up failing in all the things that i do? how i feel about the things that i feel maybe i am just thinking too much.. but the respond always prove that i am not really thinking so much, but its just that my feeling is correct.. and i hate having this feeling.. pls help me take it away.. cause everytime i have this feeling i know that nothing good is bound to happen and it always caused me to lose the things i really hold dear.. how? what should i do?? pls tell me that maybe i am just thinking too much again this time.. i don wan to lose it.. but i feels that maybe it will be better without me..

but i really don't wanna lose you dear.