hahaha.. i am going to blog about my birthday!! it jus pass.. 3 days ago..

before the clock struck twelve on the 22 dec night, i decided that i would wan to slp early to avoiding everything.. wasn't feeling that good. but i woke up at 4am in the morning of 23 dec and chatted online with josh and went t bed onli at 7 am in the morning. first time i see sunrise on my birthday also.. cause i onli went back to sleep at 7 am in the morning, at 10 plus i am still aslp.. den josh kelin and fish came to wake me up with a birthday cake!! how cool is that.. they surprised me.. really.. i wasn't expecting anything at all on my birthday this year..

i was really happy.. so i brushed my teeth and went to the dining room to cut the cake... i receive my present also.. a soap rose from kelin, honey stars and chocolate from josh and a precious moment globe from fish.. and seriously, b4 they gave me the present i can alr guess wad is inside.. haha.. cool right.. i am jus so happy that i have them as my friends.. oh ya.. and we played pillow fights too.. throwing the pillow at josh and him throwing it back.. haha.. was fun

den took cab down to beauty world with josh.. den as i wanted a psp for my birthday present from my dad, thus i keep pestering them,.. actually i went there with a feeling that my dad wont buy it for me de.. case my parents don like me to play this things.. but somehow when i reached there.. when the neighbours there came and wish me a happy birthday, they keep saying when cutting cake and candle must make ur wish known to everybody den it will come true.. and auntie keep saying.. don talk backto ur mum.. later ur mum don buy psp for u.. den they keep saying bout psp that i knew they alr bought it for me.. i was happy inside.. but i din show that i actually know bout it alr.. so when i madethe wish, i made it know.. and know when i open my eyes, the psp will be there.. and true enough, when i open my eyes, my dad passed me my psp.., i was so so happy.. pink slim.. haha.. this is the first tie i received such as expensive birthday present from my parents.. and to think they will even buy it for me.. haha.. thanks a lot mum and dad!!

and i realised.. my dad has been buying and giving me the things that i wanted.. my $80 shoe, $85 nike bag, $84 espirit sunglass, and $384 psp.. wow.. i really love you a lot dad!!! muack!!! my dad is jus so cool..(",)

i am sorry. jus in which type of situation should we use it???

sorry.. i went to check the dictionary on this word and this is what i found:
feeling regret, compunction, sympathy, pity.
feeling regret? you apologise when u felt a ting of regret in something you do.. does it always work? maybe it will work if the person is still alive and a person u still can talk to.. what if.. u knock down a person in a car accident and the person is dead and u don have the chance to say 'i am sorry'. and what if you were being charged for something you had done wrong and u were truly sincerely apologetic about it, will the judge jus let you go scot-free? what is the meaning of saying it in this kind of situation then? and in this kind of Important situation and sorry jus doesn't work.. then just in what kind of situation should the sentence 'i am sorry' work?

maybe, if u bump into somebody accidentally, and u say 'i am sorry', do u truly sincerely mean it? 'i am sorry' this sentence has become such a common sentence that i feel that it actually lost its true meaning. the only time i can say its meaning is true when u say it to parents.. for me.. i can easily say i am sorry to almost anybody and everybody.. but not to my parents.. its always the harddest to say it to them.. thus, i wrote in on paper to them to say i am sorry.. though its not as sincere.. but the meaning is still there.

jus last week, and i used 'i am sorry' or 'sorry' jus so quite often.. for projects, i said 'i am sorry' because i did not really help out much. isaid 'sorry' for being late for class. i said 'i am sorry' to kelin for stepping on her shoes.. and i din said it onli once but quite a few times. i said 'sorry' to guowen for my negligence, but i onli said it once. i said 'sorry' for not being interested in someone's topic. i said 'sorry' times and again. but.. who knows exactly which one contains the real meaning inside. i tried to express my true meaning of apologetic to every sorry i used. but can anybody sense my true meaning in them.. i don know.. but at least, i know that i tried to express my true meaning of feeling apologetic.

and after dscussing this topic with josh, i came to realised that.. i seems to feel that some times when people say sry to other people, their 'sorry' is jus a way to get away fom things. but i will still feel the sense of apologetic, at least from my friends. maybe its a sense of fear like wad josh says, when u cant forgive yourself,u feared that people do not forgive you either when in actual fact, they did.

at the end of the day, i just feel that i am thinkng a little bit too much.. emo-ing? don think so.. jus wan to have a say.. maybe.. love, life and laughter are really the magnet to miracles ( a quote from ben&jerry).. maybe its jus the love and care that u give, shows everything.

ok.. haven been blogging for the pass week.. simply because i have got nth to blog.. and don really have the mood to blog...been quite busy with projects that was due on the last 2 days of school.. now its over and 2 week break is here... but i am neither too happy bout it.. maybe is because of the stress and things that are happening that just destroy my mood.. jus hope i can slp through the 2 week and not be bothered bout anytHing and everything at all..

for my 2 week break, being free is one thing and being busy is the other.. being free onli means more things to do and being busy keeps me occupied from other things.. having more things to do onli mean doing wad a daughter, sister are supposed to do.. and being busy means i can be doing projects and means spending more time with my friends.. which i would prefer more of doing..

i have also done some thinking which leads me to thinking of knowing what i will do to some situation which might or not occur.. even if it will to occur i have an idea of what to do.. i have met different kind of people out there.. but somehow i wish i have never met that kind of people before or that i am glad that i have met some of my friends now.. actually i have had more to say but it jus stuck in my mouth and i am unable to pour it all out. all i can say is i think i am clear of my thinking now and i know what i am seeing..

i am no longer waiting for my true love's kiss.. cause i know it jus a fairy tale and it wont work that way.. that's wad people told me and ya... so that's it.. and ya.. i am pissed with the things happening. not going to elaborate.. but as my friends, i think they will know wad it means..

i am so proud of myself today!! i told myself that i am going to get serious and get my things done.. and i sort of did it.. at least for my individual part..

i woke up and ironed the clothes before i went for my sch... though i was a little late.. as kelin was late and as we are waiting for her, i made use of my time to understand wad i am supposed to do for assignments.. i read up the assignment sheets... jots down the important things needed for projects so that i can get a headstart on wad to do.. kelin came and guowen also came to crash our class. we repainted the background for art piece with red color and doing the swirl with black paint.. and they are there with the hook again..

after lesson, went leo club house.. packet food there to eat.. took a short nap while waiting for fish to finish her discussion.. after that started discussing on our CDTP project.. seems like jj, sherie, fish and kelin were a little surprised that i keep pulling them on track when they went off track?? don know?? keep asking them to be serious so that we can get things done.. but was a little self high after that.. then kelin went off to meet her friends and i did wat i am suppose to do for the project.. fish says i look stress?? but i jus told them that i jus wan to get things done so that i can do other things.. and so i sor of finished my part for CDTP..but i stil feel i gt more things to do..

den i started on my field practicum observation. sherie, jj and fish soon went off to catch their movie.. kelin came back.. and guowen soon came.. was laughing with guo yang's joke? den was bout to finish my fp when kelin decided to leave.. den after that guowen and me came to my mum shop.. mum ging to take stock so closed early.. den i took bus home with guowen.. and on the journey i am bullied by guowen!! den came home and i finshed my FP... i am so proud of myself! being able to get down to work!! three cheers for me!!

and i realised.. it seems like it has been quite some time since i laugh as happily as i did today!!

things haven been as peaceful as i thought it was. one settled and the other rise.. why cant things jus go my way.. seems like my presence onli brings trouble to people around me.. making people all upset..

i have also been lagging behind.. totally not in mood to do projects.. has no headstart at all.. someone please.. guide me along..

been hanging out late in school for this whole week also... going to mum shop onli very late at night...

don know what i have realli been thinking for this few days also.. jus have neutral feelings to everything.. tsk... when will my prince charming come and save me from everythings i am facing.. haha.. let me know if u are on the way to me.. hahaha... carry me into ur arms and run away from the harsh reality.. haha..

jus being random in this blog...

i must really say.. i am really thankful and glad to have all my friends around me.. standing up for me.. and also happy that things are all going fine now..

was seriously sad on monday night.. hide under my pillow, almost cried but didnt.. i must be strong enough... cant be falling when my friends around me are actually supporting me.. will onli let them down.. so i washed up, printed my stuff and went to slp..

but things still not going my way this morning.. was quite upset with the things happening.. met kelin and yo for our fish porridge lunch.. and mood onli starts to change in the middle of lectures... at least peace has come by now.. practiced oral speech with jiajun at can1... was quite smooth? at least better than yesterday.. jus hope it will go fine tml... think luck have been down on me now... running out of it.. its december now.. i onli going to be as happy as i can be!!! i won't allow small things to run Me down!!

EVERYTHING WILL PASS WITH JUST A SMILE(",)

jus uploaded some photos i took on sat at taka

see the stars on top of the christmas tree?? i really want it.. cause i simply love it.. hahaha...

that's jiaying and me!

the threesome!

ok... serious... has been sneaking out quite frequently these days.. turning bad now.. hee.. but will try not to do it that frequently now..

its a new month...... hahaha... and i seriously love this month... i guess those who knows me will know the reasons?? haha..

Saturday.. i went for my childcare centre concert this morning.. i helped tie the girls hair with ribbons.. changed them into their performance costumes, and helped the boys to put on plain makeup.. ok... not going in much to further details.. but i like the graduation class concert song..

den after that waited at the bus stop for almost an hr for jiaying to reach.. den took bus down orchard.. where me and jy gt lost.. don know where is where... sian.. den met kelin, guowen and fish and her sis.. so they led us to join the rest of the people.. so walked around with them.. den me and jy went kfc to have our lunch.. den we left.. like go orchard for nth.. wanted to catch their performance but missed it... so like go orchard to have kfc for lunch onli.. haha.. but nvm get to see friends..

bused down to beauty world... well baby is there today.. i feels warm with baby around me. caused he keeps sticking to me like he belongs to me, sitting on my lap, holding my hands and pulling me to bring him out... the hugs he gave me and the kisses (not my true love kiss though, lol).. he is jus so cute and adorable.. i just simply love the baby boy.. haha...

i've been dreaming of my true love kiss.. haha..

i shan let THEM distract my lovely peaceful days.. lol.. haha..

nth much realli happened in the past few days? (that's as much as i can remember?)
been sick and restless for days.. been yawning non-stop??
friday.. i went to sch.. and after sch at 1, went to plaza sing to watch enchanted..
wad a nice fairy tale show... how much i desired for a fairy tale romance...
(someday my prince charming will come) haha..
was really quite romantic show? haha..
i like the songs in it too..
e.g: ever ever after, that's how u know and true love kiss
how i wish the things inside the lyrics will jus come true.. haha..

I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss
And a prince I'm hoping comes with this
That's what brings everaftering so happy
And that's the reason we need lips so much
For lips are the only things that touch
So to spend a life of endless bliss
Just find who you love through true love's kiss

but somehow.. like what everybody knows.. fairy tales are just tales that wont come alive.. but who won't long for it to come true.. so lets wish each other own fairy tale come true.. may you all find your princess or prince charming soon! haha.. (one day my prince charming will come and fetch me in a carriage too(",) hahaha)